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NEW JOURNAL!!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!!!
Hey everybody!!!! Since it’s the New Year of 2006, I decided because it is time to make a new journal. I needed a new one for this year because last journal had entries about my life which had been a roller coaster! Many memories will be forever remembered this year. New friends, old friends revived, family, and love.
I have loved only a few boys in my life although I have dated many. Only those three had made a huge imprint in my life… Mike, Craig, and Nate.
Mike Gasper a.k.a. “Casper” who is still my best friend today… dated when I was a freshman and he was my second boyfriend ever. Although we lived an hour and half apart we managed a year through only email and phone calls. We met again when a year later at one of my semis… it was a great reunion and we ended up dancing the night away in each others arms. Then junior year he came to my homecoming game and spent the night at my house with his friend Mario twice. (Two nights in a row was fun because it was full of pranks…) Mike and I felt that the love was still there…and decided to try once more. Later that month of October, I went with him and his friends whom I still chat with today…to go to a Monster Jam. I slept over his house and we had many heartfelt conversations under the night sky. Then we decided we would wait until I graduated to try things again. To this day he is still there for me.
Craig M. He was a guy that in a sense that I could never understand. Then again he could never understand me... We fought but we felt the attraction there. It was an unexplainable feeling but it was also a strong one. Even though the relationship ended on a no so good terms, we would see each other and smile or just grin. He and I were alike in many ways; Gemini’s, loved to be loved, not caring what others thought (I sometimes did care what people thought), and stubbornness. We had a great chemistry nonetheless. I believe that we ended due to miscommunication for rumors had gone around and we believed them. Soon after we broke up he dated another girl. To this day they are still together. Many drama moments during that time period. I ended up still seeing him while he dated her because we still cared for each other, till it turned out that it was never going to work. It was awhile before I moved on because he was always there everywhere I turn. He moved back to his hometown up north in Freemont. As for the girl, they are still happily together.
And the most important because this guy was my first in a lot of cases. He was my first kiss, boyfriend, love and heartbreak.
Nate Halle a.k.a. My Canadian Man – This guy was definitely one of a kind of guy. When we met, I was only in 8th grade and it was at my friend Christina’s (a.k.a. “Chrissy”) friend Rachel’s party. It started off as “holy crap he is tall to omg he is cute!” I received a flower from him that night even though it was named ???. He was such a bad liar cause I could see him smiling in his eyes. He was also my first kiss! He was amazing because afterwards he kept close by me and we chatted on the computer until the ungodly hours. After going to bed finally around 2. We saw each other again the next day (well same day… but later…) We danced to “Turn Back the Hands of Time” by R. Kelly. and it was so surreal and I had not realized that I had fallen for him. He lived in Manchester which is a huge distance when your in middle school. Throughout the month we talked… and made plans to see each other again. During my trip in Washington D.C., I used my lunch money to call him on the pay phone just to hear him. I had found a song that made me thought of him throughout the trip… and it still does remind me of him today… “Hanging by a Moment” by Lifehouse. We had stayed together until May/June because he decided he still liked his ex and wanted to be with her again. I was heartbroken.
Some say that you never forget your first true love… I never did.
About 4/5 years later… I thought of calling my friend Chrissy to catch up on each other’s lives. I couldn’t find her so I called another friend Kat. I had left a message and about a few hours later I recived a call back. I heard a masculine voice and I was expecting to hear that I had the wrong number… but then he said my name. I knew it was familiar, then the voice asked if I knew who he was. I was so shocked that he even remembered my name!!!!!! We chatted for a bit and exchanged phone numbers again. We had talked every night for almost a week. That was the week I scored most of my Field Hockey goals. (hmmm coincidence?) That weekend we decided to see each other. After a week’s anticipation, we met in my kitchen. “OMG he is so fricken tall!!! But damn is he hot!” was the first thought in my mind when I walked in. His eyes took a hold of mine and I was falling already. We… it was an amazing feeling to be with him again. Everyone I knew told me we go together better than anyone that I ever been with. We were perfect.
Nate was also the one of first guys that my family really liked. Especially my sister and brother. They were very hard to impress, but Nate had no problem fitting right in the family. My aunt loved him from the start and my Uncle Jack, he doesn’t like people easily, and yet he liked Nate. Nate must have done something or shown him something worthy to be liked from him… I was so surprise when he asked more about Nate for he really doesn’t take to people often.
His friends were so kind and sweet. I loved them from the moment I met them. Tony’s party (my pictures from the party are in this entry…) The people I met: Maegan, old friend Nick (Maegan’s boyfriend…awww) Reese, Tony, Jake, Danille, Joie, Ashley, Derek, and a few other kids I can’t remember their names… sorry. They were the most funniest people to be around and they accepted me which I am grateful for.
Eventually all great things come to an end but I’ll never stop caring for him. True love is rare… for I know I have lost that and probably never have it again. But then again… in his words… if it’s meant to be it will be. I on that hand hope it will be in the future.
I love each of these guys and they are still forever in my heart. They have helped me grow and change to be a better person I am today. They make me stronger and I learn from the mistakes made in each relationship. But yet their friendship and the caring they have always stand out to me more than anything. Thank you.
Life is full of choices... but do you believe that fate brought us together?
NEW JOURNAL!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!!! NEW JOURNAL!!!!
I hope you comment my entry but also my new one for I will be writing in my new one for this year. I will add you friends that I talk to a lot but please comment so I can keep track. I don't want drama from anyone that has access to my journal without being my friend. Thank you all!
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